What is time exactly?

According to Google, time is a measure in which events can be ordered from the past through the present into the future, and also the measure of durations of events and the intervals between them. It is often referred to as the fourth dimension, along with the three spatial dimensions.

I think time has many definitions. First of it is, chance. God created time in order to give us chance if we ever fail at some point. Let's face it, we're humans. We all know the saying, yesterday is the past, and tomorrow is the new day.

Second, a record. God created time to record sequential events that takes place. Without time, we wouldn't know when Jesus stepped on this planet. Without time, we wouldn't know the date of our birthday. And without time, we wouldn't know the exact moment a precious event takes place.

For me, time is not something that heals. It is God that heals. Even without time, you can heal, if God wills it to.

Lastly, it lets us cherish it. Because we know that time is precious, we have this knowledge that wasting it is not a wise thing to do. We work because time runs. We live because time runs. Even if you want to die and stop the time, time still runs. That's how time functions. And that's how we are inseparable with time that God created.

Time also proves that we are finite beings, we can't do anything about it if we're inseparable to it. While, it also proves that God is an infinite being that is not bounded by time.

My cute little brother...✿

I just want to give my appreciation to my little brother--Jay! He's the cutest! And also the kindest! (:

He's already 13 years old. And I'm so grateful to God that He gave me a brother like this.

When I told my little bro that he should wake me up every 7 in the morning, he would always take the time to do so! He would also buy me foods whenever he goes to the grocery with mom. And when he forgets to buy me foods, he would say sorry. But I really don't care if he does and does not buy me foods. 

There was also this time when our uncle only gave him money. Instead of keeping all of it, he gave me and my other brother half of the money.

What I love about my brother is that he's not selfish. And he's affectionate. ^^

✿

Sad...☃

Mask

I do pretend to be cheerful. But sometimes, it's hard. It also makes me tired. I don't want to show anyone about me. I just like to be...alone.

Why? because sometimes it feels great to never put on a mask.

I'm seriously sad especially when I just realised that I don't have any true friends by my side.
Yes, i have a lot of friends.
But if i can count those real ones, there wouldn't be anyone.
And if they would know about my true self, I'm sure that they won't accept me.
I'm 100% sure.
Why? I can also see their reaction even if i didn't pretend.
I mean, really.
It's just so sad.
Sometimes, I feel like i don't need to talk to them everyday.
I don't want to talk. I really just wanna be alone.
But if God would give me one true friend, I would probably prefer being with them once in awhile.
I just feel so...left out.

Can you follow Jesus AND Be Gay?

So, while i was browsing http://www.faithlit.com 
I saw this post that intrigued me.


http://www.faithit.com/can-you-follow-jesus-and-be-gay-john-mark-comer-a-jesus-church/

If you don't want to visit the article, i have its video right here (:

https://youtu.be/gApYFFuerRY

Scheduled plans destroyed...⚐

Didn't go to plan.⚐

So i had to plans to study this sunday for my accounting quiz.
But then my aunt and uncle decided to leave their children in our house for a day.
They said that they were going to Samal island to look for the piece of land that they brought.
And so...
you know what happens.
They're veryyyyyyyyyyy noisy, especially my 2 year old cousin.

But i'm not saying that I don't like them to be here.
I was also happy that they'll be staying for a day, since they're my close cousins.
But you know, sometimes, you want to be alone and focused.

I hope i can study tomorrow.

Yummy...♥

CHICKEN BALLS. 

So i was watching cooking channels in youtube...
And found out about this chicken balls.
And I have this urge to taste it.
I want to learn how to cook this so bad.

A dream...☁

What I want to look forward to. ☁

So i had a dream about my dad.
But before that, I need to tell you that my father already passed away 2 years ago.

My dream was, my dad finally returned.
We were shock that he was there, and he said that he was out shopping (buying groceries).
And he was carrying a lot of supermarket bags.

And then he went to me, and gave me my favourite milk that he brought.
It was so many, and I was happy at both of things that occurred.
First, he returned. Second, he brought me foods.

It was really a memorable dream. I was happy that I didn't forget even when I woke up (and up to this day)

HUNGRY AF (as fudge)☹

HUHUHUHU ☹

So, i just got home from my night class.
And when I came home, there were no one inside.
And I am so hungry.

And this describes me, right now.

Just in time...NOT.☕

Being woken up exactly the time my class starts.

So, this morning, I woke up... ☼

You think I look like this? haha no. It was just the opposite.

My face looks like a carbon copy of this. 

YES. THIS.

I woke up really really late. Why? I was up late studying for my 8:45am class. My classmate said that there would be a quiz for IT (my 8:45am class). And so, I slept at around 3am, just for that. I told my mom and brother to wake me up, incase I wouldn't be able to hear the alarm. A fact about me, I'm a heavy sleeper. I wouldn't be able to hear anything or be woken up by anything, unless you pour a glass water on my face.

But anyways, it turned out great since i aced my quiz. Although, i got an absent on my attendance. It was still worth it. (i think?)

By the way, did i mention that I didn't have time to brush my teeth, wash my face, and eat my breakfast. OH YES. I didn't even have a seconds to do that. Learned my lesson, THE HARD WAY.

What should I get?

Canvasing

So I'm debating whether i should get a samsung s6 edge or an iphone 6 (I'll probably wait for the iphone 7). But what do you guys think? 

Samsung galaxy s6 edge is better in terms of Cameras, while iPhone 7 is better in terms of simplicity (not being complicated). 

What I like about Samsung galaxy s6 edge is that it looks better (physically) compared to iPhone. And I can also play various games that's offered in android.

But what I like about iPhone 6 is that it lasts longer (probably), and it's very secured. You can be sure that virus won't enter your phone. And i think that's what i like about this phone. 

Birthday of a friend!...☼

Growing old ☀

So my friend brought a beautiful cake from sugar munch for Hanna! It's her 19th birthday. We have the same names! Her's is Hanna, while mine is Hanah. There are so many Hanah/Hannah/Hanna's in the world! Anyway, I realised that we are all growing old! It just seems were 16 years old just seconds ago, and now we're 19. 

YAY...✌✐

Scoring a 'B' on my accounting quiz. To God be the glory.✌

Although i didn't get a high score, i was at least happy that i got a B. It's really hard to get a decent grade when your enemy is accounting. I know some people are really good at accounting, but i'm not (and most people are not too). So I was happy to get a score like this.

I studied in advance on that weekend, and woke up early to study it. I thought that i am going to fail since i know most teachers make the quiz hard. But guess what, our current teacher is not like that! He made the quiz really easyyy. I mean, it was a piece of cake!

Scoring a 'B' on a piece of cake quiz doesn't sound appealing at all, right? But it is to me, and my mom too. It's not because of my efforts that i got a good grade, I know that it is all because of God. He really gave me knowledge so that I would remember everything that i studied, and I was thankful for that. If i would get a bad grade, i would also thank God for it.

Letters to my friends (for my thesis) ...⚖

Education comes second...

To my two high school friends, that think they can survive without education, 

I am telling you that the world out there is harsh. People who dropped out of school didn’t get a proper job in the future. According to the dictionary, jobs are a task or piece of work, especially one that is paid. A piece of work means you have to know something in order to finish it, and that’s when education comes in. Education prepares people for their jobs, and it helps protect them from future scammers. People who were educated knows the ways of in and out in any given situation, because they were taught the basic skills and knowledge for it. In the Philippines, people who hadn’t attained certain degree were forced to work as a wandering salesman on the streets or even in the public market. My dear friends, you won’t survive in the real world if you don’t know the basics to surviving.

Thus, what i am trying to say is that education helps your future to be brighter and broader. It’s the basic discipline that would help shape us into becoming a warrior for the harsh world that will soon to come. The rules that we thought that seems to jailed us down, were probably the only bars that safeguarded our fragile young selves from the wild temptations that might devoured our irrational brains. And the useless books that we think were just useless, were probably the only one that contained explorational diamonds that can’t be snatched away from others. And lastly, those classes that we all believe were dull and boring, were presumably the one that helped us build our patience and tolerance to the tedious things that sucks our souls dry. 

Now, for the last ounce of paragraph to try and convince you to continue with your schooling…just hold on. It may feel like we were confined, caught, and held captive to the unwanted authorities that attempted to terrorise our utmost being. But even with all these factors that disgruntle us, do not forget that we are just feeble humans that makes mistakes. Although I’m telling you not to dropped out of school, I’m, at the same time, asking you not to be afraid of making mistakes. It’s okay to fall, you just have to rise up again, with God’s grace. 

                                                                                                        Yours truly, a friend who cares

[The one on bold and red letters is my thesis statement, you can disagree with this.]

Happy Father's Day & Happy Birhday!☃

Just a train of memories...☂

Happy 62th birthday, dad oh wow, how many years has it been? ♡ You know what, sometimes, i don't know how it feels like to have a dad anymore. ☹⍨ The only thing that feels alive now were the memories left behind, but even with only those pieces, i'm still grateful to God for it. ❀♪ Now i'm wondering this one thing, how happy are you right now with God huh?☃ bet you are too happy to even express it. HFD and HBD. ♕

Authority and Power...it's our own choices.☠

English Assignment

"describe the picture below"

                 “What authority and power can do”

We all see everything in our country, including the increased in poverty, the change in inflation rate, numerous corrupt scandals, and even the heedless situation in Manila. Is this all the government is about? Look around you, the poverty rate in the Philippines kept increasing. We all see it in the news, poor people being ignored of their needs. Not to mention the-not-long-ago news of the recent earthquake in the Philippines. We know that one fourth of the world donated to our poor-stricken country, and we see that not everyone got the help from it. Where did all the donations went? We probably have some ideas where it went, but kept shut about it. Why? because their authority and power made us mute.

Is this not enough to convince you that most of the government officials are corrupt? Well, let’s go to the very recent news of Pork barrel. According to the wikipedia, Pork barrel is the appropriation of government spending for localised projects secured solely or primarily to bring money to a representative’s district. For short, Pork barrel is secured solely for poor people who needs financial help. Janet Napoles used that funds to use it selfishly for herself and her family. Adding to that, she was not the only one who corrupted the funds, a huge amount of senators were even involved in it. And we, people, even thought to ourselves that they should receive proper amount of sentenced in the prison, life-sentenced or even death penalty would be the right meds for their crime.

Since we are on the topic of crimes, we know that the crime rates is as well increasing, just as the poverty rate is. And tons of people are getting jailed for it, life-sentenced or half of their life years, perhaps? Those prisoners even have their own jailed rooms, together with 15 or more other jailed-mates. But we wonder why those prisoned-senators receive their own air-conditioned room all by themselves? Why do they receive special treatment, when we all thought that prison shouldn’t care about social status. Because of that, we see everything in a different light. Authority and Power does have their own uses, it’s up to oneself to use it greedily or selflessly. 

Honestly, all of us are flawed humans. We can't go around blaming government with this problem,(although it's true that they're also part of why a country is not progressing) we are also in the problem. If we would all cooperate and made good choices together (and follow the Lord, and not the selfish hearts of us), we would rise together. 

My grandmother...❣

Reminiscing my grandmother 

I really miss my grandmother. I am writing this blog in order to express and record what I'm feeling now. So I was heading to the comfort room to pee and then when i opened the door to the comfort room, i suddenly remembered, 'what if there's a frog?', so i was a little scared. But then that thought of having a frog in the comfort room took me to the time when my granny was still alive. 

I was also heading to the comfort room, but then when i opened the door, i spotted the frog. I was so scared because it was really huge. So i went to my granny who was busy organizing her stuff, and told her that i am scared of the frog inside the comfort room and asked her if she could come with me. She gently went by my side and i received a motherly affection or probably a grandmotherly affection. It was warm. I still remember the sound of her footsteps when she was accompanying me. She had a flashlight on her hand and she was walking very slowly cause she was already old. But being old, she still went with me--her granddaughter. I thought at that moment, 'what if my granny will pass away?'

I can't even fathom the fact that she will be passing away. Although I've been thinking of the numerous possibilities, I still can't accept the fact that one day she will suddenly say goodbye.

And now I'm remembering that day on the 22nd of April. I was at the debut party of Gail. And my granny was in the hospital, fighting for her life. And as i am writing this, I'm slowly hating myself for going to Gail's birthday instead of being with my granny. I was always like this. I never knew my priorities! I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH. I also did this to my dad. I was not able to visit him cause I was busy watching korean dramas on my computer. When my granny was fighting for her life, I was there having fun at a friend's party. Throughout the years that she took care of me, I returned her love by doing this. Why am i so hateful? She was the one who took care of me when i was still a baby. I remember being fed by her slowly. She will give me rice and would pair it with soy sauce. She has always been this lovable. And i never care to return it. I WAS SELFISH. THIS IS ME.

I miss you, lola. I want to be by your side just like last time. I miss those times when you would always tell me to put my books under my pillow because it would help me gain knowledge. And those times when you would give me a blanket whenever i forgot to put one on my own. Those times when you would make me a hot chocolate when you think i needed one. And those times when my grand father would scold me and my brothers, you would always protect us even though you knew we were wrong. And those times when we would only watch shows throughout the day together. And those times when you would tell me your stories, although you often times repeated it, it was always good to listen to it. And those times when you'll sing me a lullaby, you've always been good at singing, what happened to my voice? And those times when you told me that you are good at dancing, you would always brag how you can dance the 'baili' dance. And those times when you would also brag about how good you are at speaking english, it always amazed me at how better you are than my mom at doing those english accents. And those times when you would randomly kiss me on the cheeks and on the forehead. And those times you would massage my legs and hands when they got tired. There were a lot of memories. It was good and bad, but those things made me even miss you more.

Although you took care of me, I didn't really paid much attention to you when you got older. When you started having those illness and you can't eat anymore, I was constantly annoyed at the fact that you're so gullible. You need to be taken care of every seconds. It made me think of how tiring it was to take care of you. And then it happened when the doctors needed to put tube in your body as a passage way to eat, you constantly complained at how annoying the tube was. You would always make ways on how to remove it, it frustrated my mom the most, cause you were noisy and sometimes you'll be able to remove it without us noticing. So we have to stay alert, not sleeping was the best way. Until all of us can't do it anymore, we hired maids to do it for us. I didn't know that those numerous maids that came and took care of you were very harsh to you. At that time, i really didn't look at how you always complained that you were hurting and you don't like them. You were wild and mean at that time, my grandma. But i never knew how hard it was for you, that's why i never understand. 

And then when we went to a vacation, we left you in the care of your son. While we were on vacation, my auntie told us that you can't wake up anymore, we were flustered. I was shocked and I realized that I'm still not ready for you to pass away. 

We saw you, lying helplessly on that bed, only relying on the machine. It was painful for me to look at you in that condition because i was never used to seeing you so fragile. I asked my church-mate if she could pray for you. She went where you were and prayed that you will get healed in the name of Christ. Instantly, you woke up. Thank you, God! And so we experienced God's amazing grace and mercy. I was happy at that time. 

 I really missed you. It was my time to see you and i held your hand. It was cold. And i was shaking. It was different. But the touch of your hand made me feel that I'm happy that you're still here, that God still gave me chance to share Jesus with you.

When your burial came, It was my statistic's quiz. I can't afford to miss it, so i missed the photo-shoot with you and the whole family. I realized that I put my school above you. I AM SORRY.  Although it would be the last moment to see your face, I had choose statistic's quiz over you. I AM SORRY. 

If i could turn back time,  I would not miss the chance to give you my time, to tell you that i love you, to be there with you when you needed someone to take care of you cause you can't do it alone, to listen to all the stories that you want to share (although i know that you'll be saying the same stories all over again, I would choose to remember that I was also like that when I was a child, and you were patient with me), and last but not the least, to tell you how much Jesus loves you.

I'm sorry that the message didn't get to you.

All i want is for you to know how much Jesus loves you, and how much I want all of us to be together in heaven with our creator. 

I love you, lola.

[CRESENCIA QUILLAS]

'Changed' is suitable for this...ღ

To: My sociology teacher

Message: Here is my report paper.

I am not sure if the word ‘mature’ suits best with what I am going to share; probably the word ‘changed’ is suitable for this. 

When I was in my 4^th year high school, I used to be very spoiled and lazy. I never really cared about my grades since my only aim is just to pass. Every day when I got home from school, my first destination would be my computer. I would spend my whole night lazing around the computer instead of spending the whole night with my family. I would always remember the tiring face of my parents whenever I arrive in the house. I can see that they’ve been doing their best to send me and my brothers to school. That kind of love that they sacrificed themselves for our sake never reached me. I was immature back then.  I was in the dark. I was blinded. The things I should have valued back then should have been the things that can’t be bought my money and I regretted that the most. The sinner, ugly, terrible and nightmare ‘me’ was my worst enemy and I didn’t realize it until God taught me a lesson. The lesson made me come to God. It made me know him. It made me desire him more and more. 

It was 4 weeks before college starts. It was Sunday, my brothers and I are getting ready to go to church. My parents can’t go since my father’s heart started aching and I was very worried, so I asked mom to watch over him. When I got home from church, my father was still there, massaging his heart.  I asked him if it was really serious and he nodded. I told my mom to send him to the hospital but my mom said it was just normal. I was angry when my mom said that. She didn’t realize that it was really serious. I entered the room where my father was at. I asked him plenty of questions about the symptoms he experienced; my father participated and answered all my questions. I want to help figure out my father’s sickness since my mom doesn’t want to take him to the doctor. I wrote down everything he said and I searched it on Google, but no matter how hard I try to search for answers, I really can’t find it. Let’s face it, I am not a doctor and trying to be one doesn’t help in our case. 

I forced my mom to let him go to the doctor, but my mom won’t budge. She’s still determined about not letting my dad go. That night, my father finally said that he wants go to see the doctor, so my mom finally agreed. I was in front of my computer, surfing the net when my parents started packing. Before my father left, I asked him if he wants to bring his bible. He smiled and said yes. I was happy to see him smile. He loves the Lord more than ever. He loves him more than us and that’s enough for me to smile while writing this.  I got the bible and gave it to him. After a few minutes, they went off. I waved good bye to them, and I never knew that, that was the last time that I would see him…

I was the one watching my parents’ business since they’re both in the hospital. I manage their business while watching Korean dramas. I was irritated. I wished my mom closed the store so that I wouldn’t be the one watching it. Anyways, my dad was immediately sent to the ICU and my mom frowned at that. ICU was expensive and my mom doesn’t want to spend money on expensive bills. My mom wants the nurses to transfer my dad to a normal room. After 2 days, my father was transferred to a normal room. It was Thursday when my father asked to see me. I wasn’t able to go since I have to watch over the business. I was at the store and my brothers and I were planning to see my dad, to have dinner together with him.

A call suddenly arrived and my brother was the one to answer it. It was my mom. She said my father can’t breathe. We need to get there soon, she said. I was panicking. I don’t know if it was reality, but all I knew was that my heart was pounding so fast and that’s enough evidence that I’m not dreaming. We immediately went to where my dad was. When I arrived, I saw doctors everywhere. They were pumping my dad’s heart and I can hear the sound of the ICU. I was frozen. I can’t move. I feel like I want to cry but I can’t. 

I don’t want to watch my dad fighting for his life, so I went to the dark alley. I prayed and prayed to God that he would let my dad live. I also blurted words and words that felt like I was doing a ritual. 

My brothers suddenly came to me and gave me the news that my dad is gone. They were crying, but I was not crying. I was in shock. I was not even sure just what in the world just happened.

Later that night, my brain finally registered just what happened. I cried so much that felt like my eyes were going to drop. I felt so dead. I lost hope of everything. I thought that we’re going to stay happily. I thought that he would still be alive to see my wedding. I also thought that he would be the one who would walk me down the aisle. Everything was shattered; and things wouldn’t be the same without my father…

My father was very loyal to God. He read the bible while he was in the hospital. God was his first priority above all; and I proudly want to declare that I’m my father’s daughter. 

The day of my father’s burial was also the day that I would go to the youth camp, to learn more about God. In those 5 days that I spent in the youth camp was one of the miraculous days that had happened to me. God touched and opened my heart. He gave me life. He gave me peace and comfort. He let me know that he loved me so much, enough to die on the cross for me. He made me realized that there’s still hope, a hope that I would be able meet my dad in heaven. That hope was enough to live for…♥

My hope is Jesus, the savior who died for me. ♥

God’s love for us made me realized of how much worth I am. Because of Jesus, I desired to change, to be like him. 

Now that I am in college without my dad, I know I have the full weight responsibility of taking care of my mom and my brothers. I have to be the one who would take care of them. Because Christ is in me, I should be an example to everybody that includes my family. The spoiled 16 year old girl that just lost her dad is now the 17 year old who found Christ.  ♥

Falling in love with God Jesus knows...❣

The good and beautiful God.

I brought this book entitled "The good and beautiful God" 
It teaches us the God that Jesus knows.

I like this book since it explains the true God. It makes me know him in Jesus' perspective.
If I know the true God and how much love he has for us, then avoiding sin would be so much easier. ♥

I'm in chapter 1 of this book, and it is about what we want to seek.

" Would you like to have abiding peace? Would you like to have a heart that is filled with love? would you like to have the kind of faith that sees everything-even your failures and losses-in light of God's governance for good? Would you like to have the kind of hope that endures even in discouraging circumstances? "

If yes, then reading this book would definitely help you, but you shouldn't fully rely on this book since you still need the Holy Spirit to change you. :)

♡...How to walk in Love...♡

◘. What Love is. ◘

(source: http://www.examiner.com/article/how-to-walk-love)

"Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have faith, so that I could move mountains, but not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow my goods to feed the poor, and though I leave my body to be burned but have not love, it profits me nothing.' 

- 1 Corth. 13: 1-3 (NKJV)

This is one of the most popular chapters in the bible because it debunks many theories on what makes a good Christian. This passage make it clear that neither the ability to preach nor the eloquence of delivery, an in-depth knowledge of theology nor the working of phenomenal miracles, amount to anything without the genuine expression of the God kind of love.

You may have heard the popular saying, 'It is impossible to love without giving, but it is possible to give without loving'. The question then is, 'What motivates your acts of charity?'. A desire to help or a desire to be recognized? If you don't get a thank you, will you regret making that donation? Is an opportunity to preach a chance to spread the good news or a chance to show off your oratory skills? 

As a tree is identified by its fruit, so also are Christians identified by their character not their activities. Galatians refers to it as the 'Fruits of the Spirit'. "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control. Against such there is no law." Gal. 5: 22-23(NKJV). If people cannot readily describe you using any of the above, you have some work to do.
Fortunately, 1 Corth. 13 doesn't just leave us hanging after saying what love is not...It gives some excellent examples of what love is. The Message translation puts it very nicely.

"Love never gives up

Love cares more for others than for self

Love does not want what it doesn't have

Love doesn't strut

Doesn't have a swelled head

Doesn't force itself on others

Isn't always 'Me First'

Doesn't fly off the handle

Doesn't keep score of the sins of others

Doesn't revel when others grovel

Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth

Puts up with anything

Trusts God always

Always looks for the best,

Never looks back

But keeps going to the end

Love Never Fails" 

(1 Corth 13:4-8)

So love isn't just smiling, hugging and mouthing 'I love Yous' every Sunday (though that is certainly part of it.) It's all of the above and even more. How much more meaningful would your acts of charity be if they were fueled by the attitude prescribed above? The conclusion is a promise: LOVE NEVER FAILS. Walking in love is the only thing that guarantees 100% success in your endeavors. Go ahead and try it out at home, school, work or play (even the ones that made you scratch your head or roll your eyes!) You will be pleasantly surprised by the results.

Let's Pray: Dear Heavenly Father, help us to walk in love. Please be my guidance in accomplishing this goal. God, please plant love in my heart. Thank you for the blessings. Thank you for loving me until now. Thank you for your love and thank you for the mercy and grace. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

A life without Jesus, is a life without meaning...❥

Jesus is the reason why we're still living. ♥

Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

-John 14:6

                                             If we truly love Jesus, we would walk in his path. 

Do you know the reason why we're still here and breathing? It's because of JESUS.

Jesus died for us on the cross, so that we may life. We are sinners and we are destined to hell. We are destined to suffer eternity in hell. But Jesus came down and rescued us from sins. We are now FREE from the slavery of sin and we now have the FREEDOM to follow Jesus. ♥

Because Jesus took the fall, we are now saved.We can be with our Savior and God for eternity. Death has no sting to us, if we surrendered our lives to the Lord. 

Let, God take care of everything. Leave everything to the Lord, and trust him with all our heart.

Let us Pray: Dear Heavenly Father. Thank you for sending your son, Jesus, to the cross to die for us sins, so that we may be saved and be with you. Thank you that you love us even though we are sinners, and thank you for still loving me even though I'm not perfect. God, I surrender my life to you. Please take care of everything in my life. I will not worry since I know you are the God of my life and that you are faithful to your promise. In the Almighty name of Jesus, Amen.

Be still, know that I am God...ღ

In every trials we face, we must remember that God is the God almighty and the God of all creations. 

For it is written in PSALM 46:10

"Be still. Know that I am God"

When we begin to doubt things, we just need to remember the verses in the bible, especially on the above.  If we meditate and keep this in our mind, we will surely be a success in living as a child of God.

There were times when I forget that God is almighty and powerful. There were also times that I only think of myself and not God. But we should always think that God is the Alpha and the Omega. Everything starts with him and everything also ends with him. In the first verse of Genesis, it says "In the beginning God"

That phrase alone should help us be humble and not be selfish. All the possessions that we have is not ours, It's all from God. He created all of those things

And because all things start with him, we should also trust him in everything. Do not doubt. Do not be move by things on this earth. Always remember the verse in PSALM 46:10.

Prayer: "Thank you for the wonderful day, God. Thank you for all the blessings that you have given us God. O'God, always help us to remember that you are the Alpha and the Omega. In times when I doubt, help us to remember that you are God. "

Experiencing God's amazing love and grace..❣

The day my father left us.

 On May 16, 2013.

This time, I don't have to worry about not seeing you again, dad. Because we will all reunite in heaven, together with our Jesus and our Lord. ♥

I remember it so clearly, I was in the store when my mother called. My brother was the one who picked up the phone. 

Suddenly, my brother yelled, "Dad can't breathe! hurry!!"
I was in between of reality and imaginations. I don't know if it were true. The reality never sunk in that moment. I thought I was dreaming. I thought it was all me. I thought it was all just a prank.

But after seeing my brother so panic and so out of himself. I was finally convinced that it was true, that it was not a dream, imaginations nor a prank. This is the moment when all things became important, and every seconds of that time was very important. 

I hurriedly ran outside the house with my brothers, leaving behind the store. Who cares about the store when my father is in that kind of state??
While we were on the cab, me and my brothers kept on praying to God non-stop. We prayed to spare my dad's life. When we got to the hospital, we asked the information desk on what door number is our dad. They said the number and we rashly run to the stairs. 
When we arrived on the 4th floor, I saw my mother outside the room, talking with my dad's doctor. My mom's face was so troubled. And in an unconscious moment, my feet and hands began to trouble as I kept nearer and nearer to the door, that seemed to be the most scariest thing that I've ever seen and felt in my entire life. When I finally arrived, there were nurses and doctors everywhere. They were pumping my dad's heart, in hope of him being revived. As I was standing with my stoned-body, the only thing I could hear was the sound of the ECG. It made my heart beat in panic. 

I can't take it anymore. I can't stand there looking at my dad, as he fights for his life. So, I ran outside the room, and into the hall. I found a dark place where I could be alone. At that place, I prayed to God desperately, seeking for his mercy and his grace. I cried, but not too much. My hands were still shaking while I sat there, almost losing my sanity. While I was praying, a feeling came to me, a feeling that I was not sincere, that I was just blurting words and words just to save my dad. I was only thinking of myself and I was not thinking of God because I half-didn't believe that he would revive my dad. 

I was a christian ever since my childhood. But now that I think about it, I was only a christian by religion only. But at some point of time, I believed in  Jesus, I believed in the Holy Spirit and also the God of all Gods.

And then, my brother came to me with a loud voice. I can't hear him since he's not being very clear. At first, I thought he was laughing but as he came nearer to me, I could hear his voice clearly. He was crying, together with my little brother. "Dad is gone!" He cried loudly. 

I was shock and I almost can't believe it. My dad...my dad was gone?? Was this true? Wait no...he's just sleeping, yeah...he's probably sleeping. Don't worry about it... I'm alright. I would see him after all this was over...this is just a terrible dream...just a nightmare. I would wake up soon..

I was not crying when all my two brothers were crying. I was staring at the ground, staring like a broken doll. But I knew that I need to comfort my brothers, so I told them that Dad is in heaven. They also agreed. So, their cries lessen a little.

I went to my mother and I saw her sitting beside my dad. Her eyes had dried because of too much crying. 
And then, I focused to my dad's lifeless body. I touched his cold feet with a sorrow feeling within my heart.  My dad had left us.  Suddenly, all memories of him came showering on my mind. The time when we fought, the time when I got him angry, the time when all of us laugh, the time when all family ate together and the time when we talked about God.

He was a christian, he believed in Jesus and his life was devoted to only serving him. I would see him reading his bible every night and when trouble comes, like the time when his heart started aching, he immediately got up and read the bible for 3 hours straight. Can't you believe it? The most trouble times he had, he spent it with the Lord. He never complained about his illness nor he cries about it. He was a strong dad.  A very kind and loving father. He was loyal to my mother and he really loves us. He also served the Lord with a loyal heart, that is why I was moved by his loyalty towards God.

I started thinking about God and I came to this conclusion. I need God and I can't live without him.

The day of my father's burial was also the day that I will attend the youth camp. It was a perfect timing. It felt like God has planned all this. 

Before my father passed away, I was enslaved by my computer. I can't live without my computer and when my parents try to take it away from me, I get very angry. I was worshiping this computer, it is because I put this computer before God. 

And God planned to free me from this slavery. The reason why he took dad with him, was because he wants me and my family to come to know him. He wants us to realize that he is powerful and majestic. He is the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end. He is love and he is merciful. He is everything.

After the camp, I had realized all these things. I was happy and excited at the same time, happy because I had come to know the Lord once again, and excited because I can't wait to share this to everybody.

I wrote this blog, in hope of you, finding The Lord. May God open your heart and your eyes so that you'll come to know his amazing grace and his amazing love.

Remember, all glory goes back to him since he is the creator. The God of all Gods, and the King of all Kings. ♥

Prayer: " Almighty and powerful Father, may you open our hearts and our minds to the things unseen. May you help us see your amazing grace and your amazing love to us. I give my life into your hands. Thank you God for giving your son to die on the cross for our sins. Thank you for everything. In the almighty name of Jesus, Amen. "